Good Enough

I'm in a bit of a funk. Not necessarily depressed, but possibly headed in that direction. I feel overwhelmed and lazy. Just two days ago I was feeling so accomplished. I really can't trust my feelings, so I have to look at facts. The facts are, I have been working my butt off. I have been doing the best I can. I can't control what other people think of me. If someone thinks I am not giving it my all, then screw them! That's just the way I feel about it at the moment. I don't care who you are. You're not me, so you have no business criticizing me. So there's that. I've had a lot to juggle lately, and I don't mind that. I like staying busy. I like feeling needed and valued. Some days I really don't feel appreciated by anyone, but that's not to say that this is the truth. Again, it's feelings. And they will pass, or they won't; either way, they are not the dictator of who I really am or what I am worth. All I can really do is strive for what I know is right, whether it's a recognized effort by others or not. I'm tired of letting low self-esteem and paranoia tell me I'm not good enough. I AM good enough. My proof of this? I'm alive, and I'm trying. That's good enough for me!