I had big plans to get the house sparkling clean today in preparation for my son's birthday party tomorrow...but it didn't happen. I'm exhausted, and between kids, work, and emotional/hormonal chaos, I just can't be superwoman. Not long ago, this would have freaked me out. But now I just don't really care. Yes, I love having a clean house, especially if company is coming over. But it's just not my biggest priority now. I always keep my house sanitary and livable, but it's rarely ever CLEAN. There's clutter (which I hate), there's dust, there's cobwebs. You can tell people (and spiders) live here. And you know what? THAT'S FREAKING OKAY! My OCD tendencies don't like it so much, but I have come to realize that it doesn't matter how clean or dirty the house is: that part of me will never be satisfied. So I have to turn a blind eye to some things. It's not easy, but it's necessary.
So yeah, a birthday party tomorrow. We're having a very small gathering, and I am trying not to get stressed out about being around everyone. I'm just blocking it out of my head for now. I am focusing on the fact that there will be cake. Yummy, sweet cake
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