Sunday

My son found the above video. I thought it was really cool so I thought I would share. Enjoy!

Almost 25 weeks along now and WOW this kid kicks like crazy! But I only feel the kicks really low, like on my bladder. I'm wondering if I have an anterior placenta. That would explain why I can't feel the kicks higher. This is the first pregnancy I've had like this. It's weird.

I probably don't have plans for tomorrow night. There was a little talk of taking Jacen with two of his cousins to see fireworks but I think it's supposed to rain so I doubt we'll go anywhere. But I'm making some party food at home and will probably play boardgames with Jacen to ring in the new year. That works :)

I hope you all have a wonderful new year!

Christmas Eve

Just popping in to tell you all Merry Christmas! I am looking forward to watching my son open his presents in the morning, and I'm looking forward to Wednesday because my oldest daughter is coming to see me. I have been struggling to deal with the fact that my middle child refuses to speak to me and will not come see me for Christmas. That hurts a lot. I don't even know why she is acting this way because she won't tell me. I have cried a lot of tears over it and I've been depressed about not seeing her for the holidays, but I know I need to snap out of it for my other children's sakes. Unfortunately, snapping out of it is not a strength of mine, but I am working on it.

Social Progress

It seems that Saturday is my magic day to write on here. Today Douglas and I met a friend for lunch at a French restaurant. The food was divine and the prices were reasonable. I had a good time catching up with my friend. Toward the end of a two hour visit I started getting sensitive to the noise and crowd around us and began getting a headache, but what progress I have made in the last couple of years! In the past leaving my house was nearly impossible to bear and the thought of being in a noisy restaurant would send me into a panic. There are a lot of things I can do now that I used to could not. Like handling family get togethers and going to Wal-Mart and actually enjoying getting out of the house. Now, I'm still as introverted as a person can be, but it's my personality rather than extreme anxiety that makes me that way. I still prefer to be home most days but I don't feel like the world is tumbling down on me when I go out anymore.

I hope I can continue to get stronger with social interaction. I still have a hard time making phone calls and going places by myself. But I'm worlds away from where I was, and for that I am so, so grateful.

Saturday

We're expecting ice and snow tonight. Meanwhile this dreary rain has me in a solemn mood. I have napped most of the day and have had a crying spell that I will just blame on hormones. I was thinking about how much I miss my daughters. Once I get in this frame of mind it's hard to get out, but I'm trying.

My husband will likely get stuck at work after his shift tonight so he has his bag packed just in case. I'm hoping it doesn't get that bad but it certainly looks like it will. At least the perk of working at a hotel means he will have a nice room to stay in. I wish I could go with him lol

Lazy Saturday

Our meal yesterday was a success. It was nice to see everyone and they all loved the food. As always, social interaction like that drains the life out of me so I am in recovery mode today. I did some online shopping for Christmas and made a grocery list. I'm about to finish reading the book I'm on. It's called The Woman in the Window by A.J. Finn. I am loving it so far. It's a page turner for sure and has some twists within it. I'm always game for a good psychological thriller.