I think I am going to have to start going to a therapist again. It was suggested for me by my mental health clinic to do that months ago, but I talked myself out of it. Talking is emotionally draining, it would be yet another thing my husband would have to drive me to each week, I can handle my thoughts on my own, yada yada. But things have gotten worse and I feel like I am falling apart cell by cell. I have too much going on inside my head, things I can't really explain to anyone, and I don't know if a therapist would be able to piece my emotions together or not. But maybe it's time to try. Therapy has helped me in the past, but I have gone so long without needing it. I have had a good support system with my husband, and I still do, but...I'm getting so paranoid and insecure and up and down, up and down that I can't make sense of anything. My panic attacks have come back. My mind won't shut off its relentless torturing thoughts. I know I'm overreacting to everything. I'm having a lot of depressing self-centered thoughts, like I'm not good enough, everyone is going to leave me, I'll be all alone, etc. I know I'm being irrational, or at least I hope I am.
Ugh, enough whining. I hate to even be writing this.
I really don't think my meds are working anymore.
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I was talking to my doctor yesterday when she came out and she wanted me to see a therapist and I said no. I understand not wanting to but maybe it'll help you. You can always stop seeing them.
You have a point. I could at least give it a shot.
Sending you hugs and the strength to do whatever you need to for yourself. It's always difficult to take that first step. I think most of us try to do everything on our own first even if we need the help sometimes.
Karen @ For What It's Worth
Thank you Karen. I'm accepting the fact that I need some help. I can't pretend to be okay anymore.
… maybe seeing and talking to a therapist would help?
All the best Jan
Probably so, Jan.
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