Wedding Day

Everything went smoothly with the ceremony this morning and I am officially married to my sweetheart. We didn't have funds or time off work to go on a honeymoon but my mom took us out to lunch at Red Lobster. Maybe we can take a little kid free trip soon. It would be nice to get away.

Despite the happy excitement I've had today I feel a little depressed now. This has been happening frequently and usually in the evenings. I get feelings of worthlessness and insecurity, and the panic that everything is not what it seems and the floor is going to crumble beneath me. The insomnia is still going on most nights. If I could have a regular sleep schedule again I think I could get my emotions back on track. Maybe that will happen soon.