Happy Birthday

I am turning 39 tomorrow. I consider that age to still be young, but at the same time I can't believe I am actually there already. I'm blessed to still be alive. And I'm blessed to want to be alive, because at some points in my life I did not want to be.

I have slept well two nights in a row and I feel a little more emotionally stable than I have been lately. I have a lot to be happy about in life. My only heartbreak is that my daughters are becoming more and more distant toward me. I know they stay very busy but I used to at least get a phone call each night from my oldest daughter, and now she says she's too busy for even that. I just really miss them. I practically stalk them on social media just to keep up with what is going on in their lives because they don't want to see me in person very much. Their dad won't even talk to me anymore, and we used to be friends. I don't know why I have become this leprous person to all of them. It hurts. I love my daughters so much. I just pray they realize it and that they eventually come around.