Reality

My head hurts and I'm so anxious. I think the reality of yesterday and today have finally sunk in and I'm having trouble coping. My mom's triple bypass surgery is in the morning. Today when we were coming home from the hospital the hood on our van flew open and smashed the windshield. That was very scary and I'm so thankful that we didn't wreck. I'm still unnerved by what could have happened. Between that and worrying about my mom I am finding it hard to breathe and I need to go check my blood pressure because I feel like it's up. Last thing we need is for ME to have a heart attack or stroke. There is such a difference in knowing I should calm down and actually being able to do so.