Anxious!

I am a nervous wreck at the moment. I was thinking about my memoir and realized it would be extremely helpful to have access to my psychiatric records for the time period that I am covering. I found their policy information about requesting records and it sounds pretty simple. But my social phobia is having a fit over this. How can I ask for these records? Should I call or ask them in person (the place is just down the road from my home)? What if they ask me why I need them? It would be so embarrassing to tell them it's for a book, but what other reason would I give them? My chest hurts. I am on the verge of a panic attack just thinking about this. Time to take a Klonopin and listen to peaceful music. I will have to figure this out later.