Bipolarly

Depression is horrible.

Psychotic depression is wanting to write/scream what is really going on inside my head but I can't because I will be put away in a state funded asylum because I don't have insurance.

So I keep quiet and still and hope that no one can read my thoughts. The shadows do but they only laugh. They are of no use to me.

Meanwhile I just want so sleep 24/7 so I will have a break from these nonstop thoughts (though they almost always find their way into my dreams).

It's getting worse instead of better, I know it is. I hope we all make it out alive.