Bipolarly

Let us try to have a stress-free Christmas, shall we? I've been beating myself up for getting behind on everything while I was sick this past week, but self-loathing never helped anyone, so instead I am going to focus on the positive. We have a great meal planned, and I look forward to spending time with my family. I may have to take breaks along the way,  I may have to go to the other room for a breather here and there, but the important thing is that I keep my efforts focused on the things that truly matter, and to not get bogged down emotionally with the silly things like having everything just right like a good hostess "should". I'm Amy. I don't have it altogether. Not at Christmas, not ever. My nerves will be frazzled to a certain extent regardless. But I am strong and I can do my best, and that is perfectly good enough. What's more, my family loves me just the way I am, frazzled and not-together and emotionally unstable as I can be. They don't require me to be perfect. They just want me to be present. That's all any of us really have to be. Present and open to the days, the moments, the memories. Do what you can, and let that be enough. I wish you all a wonderful and memorable holiday. Be safe, be merry, and be your beautiful self!