Sunday

My son found the above video. I thought it was really cool so I thought I would share. Enjoy!

Almost 25 weeks along now and WOW this kid kicks like crazy! But I only feel the kicks really low, like on my bladder. I'm wondering if I have an anterior placenta. That would explain why I can't feel the kicks higher. This is the first pregnancy I've had like this. It's weird.

I probably don't have plans for tomorrow night. There was a little talk of taking Jacen with two of his cousins to see fireworks but I think it's supposed to rain so I doubt we'll go anywhere. But I'm making some party food at home and will probably play boardgames with Jacen to ring in the new year. That works :)

I hope you all have a wonderful new year!

Christmas Eve

Just popping in to tell you all Merry Christmas! I am looking forward to watching my son open his presents in the morning, and I'm looking forward to Wednesday because my oldest daughter is coming to see me. I have been struggling to deal with the fact that my middle child refuses to speak to me and will not come see me for Christmas. That hurts a lot. I don't even know why she is acting this way because she won't tell me. I have cried a lot of tears over it and I've been depressed about not seeing her for the holidays, but I know I need to snap out of it for my other children's sakes. Unfortunately, snapping out of it is not a strength of mine, but I am working on it.

Social Progress

It seems that Saturday is my magic day to write on here. Today Douglas and I met a friend for lunch at a French restaurant. The food was divine and the prices were reasonable. I had a good time catching up with my friend. Toward the end of a two hour visit I started getting sensitive to the noise and crowd around us and began getting a headache, but what progress I have made in the last couple of years! In the past leaving my house was nearly impossible to bear and the thought of being in a noisy restaurant would send me into a panic. There are a lot of things I can do now that I used to could not. Like handling family get togethers and going to Wal-Mart and actually enjoying getting out of the house. Now, I'm still as introverted as a person can be, but it's my personality rather than extreme anxiety that makes me that way. I still prefer to be home most days but I don't feel like the world is tumbling down on me when I go out anymore.

I hope I can continue to get stronger with social interaction. I still have a hard time making phone calls and going places by myself. But I'm worlds away from where I was, and for that I am so, so grateful.

Saturday

We're expecting ice and snow tonight. Meanwhile this dreary rain has me in a solemn mood. I have napped most of the day and have had a crying spell that I will just blame on hormones. I was thinking about how much I miss my daughters. Once I get in this frame of mind it's hard to get out, but I'm trying.

My husband will likely get stuck at work after his shift tonight so he has his bag packed just in case. I'm hoping it doesn't get that bad but it certainly looks like it will. At least the perk of working at a hotel means he will have a nice room to stay in. I wish I could go with him lol

Lazy Saturday

Our meal yesterday was a success. It was nice to see everyone and they all loved the food. As always, social interaction like that drains the life out of me so I am in recovery mode today. I did some online shopping for Christmas and made a grocery list. I'm about to finish reading the book I'm on. It's called The Woman in the Window by A.J. Finn. I am loving it so far. It's a page turner for sure and has some twists within it. I'm always game for a good psychological thriller.

20 Weeks

I had a visit with my psychiatrist yesterday. She was running behind so I ended up sitting in a hard, uncomfortable chair in the waiting room for an hour, and since then I have had excruciating pain in my tailbone. It hurts to sit, stand, walk, lay down, everything. Not good since I have a lot of cleaning to do today and tomorrow to get ready for my husband's folks coming over Friday. I will just do what I can and hope for the best. 

The good news about the visit it that she said it should be safe for me to continue my meds while breastfeeding. There is actually less amount of the drugs that comes out in the breastmilk than what she is already absorbing through my blood. So for me this is great news. I was afraid I would have to change meds or stop taking them altogether. The fact that I have done so well mentally with this pregnancy so far gives me hope that maybe, just maybe, I will not experience any severe postpartum depression. I can hope anyway. Usually I have bad depression during pregnancy as well, but I have been lucky so far. This has been an easy pregnancy, except for my ever increasing fatigue. When I go to my OB I'm going to ask him to check my iron. Maybe that's the problem. 

We have planned for too much food for Friday, as always. The menu is turkey, dressing, potato salad, deviled eggs, sweet potato souffle, mac & cheese, corn casserole, cranberry sauce, green beans, rolls, cranberry fluff, and Coca-Cola cake. I am cooking a lot of the stuff, but Douglas and his mom are cooking a few things, and I'm sure Douglas will help me if I get too overwhelmed. 

I haven't decorated for Christmas yet. I'm in no condition to lift all the heavy containers out of the storage closet, and I've been too tired to fool with it anyway. I want to get the tree up at least, for Jacen's sake. Otherwise I wouldn't care if there were any Christmas decorations or not. 

Almost Time for Thanksgiving

We had a really cold, rainy week here in North Georgia, but the sun finally came out yesterday and it's been really nice outside since. Unfortunately I have started experiencing dizzy spells so I didn't get to enjoy the outdoors as much as I would like, but my son did.

If the dizziness will calm down I am planning on having a major cleaning fest this coming week. I am going to my aunt's house on Thanksgiving but on the 30th my husband's family is coming here. I have a lot of neglected chores I need to catch up on before then. I'm not expecting perfection, but an improvement would be nice. I have a friend who has offered to come help me so I may take her up on her offer.

If I don't write again before Thursday, I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving. 

Alone in a Room

This song has been out for a while but I only heard it recently. It gets stuck in my head but I like it :)

Update

Life has been really busy lately but the baby and I are doing great. I'm just feeling exhausted a lot. I would love to have a day to just relax and take a long nap. I am up early this morning because I have a urology appointment. Still having some issues with my bladder. I get the feeling that's never going to end lol 

I am soooo craving some Hawaiian punch right now. 

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